- I'm not disappointed when people say no and I've avoided having potentially awkward or tense conversations with people.
- I'm not blown away by God's generosity through those around me.
Ever since I was a kid in school, I've struggled to ask for help. I'd struggle with a subject but wouldn't ever ask the teacher or a fellow student for help. Perhaps it was part pride - how dare I not be able to do this all on my own! - and part not wanting to be a burden - how could I ask so much of someone? - but asking for help, or anything, never came easily. Fast forward a few years and now, working for FOCUS, we fundraise our salary and ministry expenses. Talk about asking for things! Recently I was complaining to myself that I am tired of always asking people for things, especially money. What I found, however, is that if I don't ask, one of two things happens: