Typically I know what song I want to feature days in advance. I would have liked to have written this post hours ago but I havenโt been able to nail down a song, mostly because my head is still in a bit of a funk, but more on that some other time (God knows this is my own little confessional). Without further ado, the song of the weekโฆ
Rock or Knock: Rock.
Song: Breathing
Artist: Lifehouse
Lyrics:
Iโm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I donโt really know what Iโm gonna do when I get there
take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
โCause I am hanging on every word youโre saying
Even if you donโt wanna speak tonight
Thatโs alright, alright with me
โCause I want nothing more than to sit outside heavenโs door
And listen to you breathing
Itโs where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Iโm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And Iโm trying to identify the voices in my head
God which one are you?
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me one more time
โCause I am hanging on every word youโre saying
Even if you donโt wanna speak tonight
Thatโs alright, alright with me
โCause I want nothing more than to sit outside of your door
And listen to you breathing
Itโs where I wanna be, yeah
Oh I donโt want a thing from you
Bet youโre tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La da da da
โCause I just wanna be here now
โCause I am hanging on every word youโre saying
Even if you donโt wanna speak tonight
Thatโs alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heavenโs door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Iโve loved Lifehouse for a very long time. They were the first concert I ever went to (Colbie Caillat, Lifehouse and the Goo Goo Dolls at Red Rocks. Beat that.) and then I saw them two more times that year. Iโve seen them four times total now and somehow Iโve forgotten about them until recently. I guess you could say Iโve been hooked on other artists and discovering new music but there is something wonderful about rediscovering old loves, and this song (and this band) is no exception. โBreathingโ is one of the lesser known singles from Lifehouseโs first album, though Iโm not sure why because it is amazing.
Maybe this song rocks because it simply speaks to where Iโm at, but I still find God between the lyrics. I am finding my way back to sanity again, though I certainly have no idea what Iโm going to do when I get there. Probably spin around and hopefully I will gracefully fall back into the arms of grace. After all, why would I want to leave the arms of grace in the first place?
And this is where I change the โyouโ to โYouโโฆI am hanging on every word You say and even if You donโt want to speak tonight thatโs alright. I just want to be here, outside Your door and listen to You breathe. Thatโs all I want. To be here. To rest here.
Iโm trying to look past the shadows in my mind, past the doubt and the confusion and yet there seem to be so many voices, so many opinions, so much input from the outside world that I find myself lost in the chaos of it all. God, which voice is Yours? Yours is the one I want to rest in. Let me feel what it feels like to feel because I find myself going numb to it all, so please, break these calluses off of me yet again.
I donโt want a thing from You, nothing more than Youโve already given me anyway โ which, by the way, is everything. I want Your peace. Oh, wait, Youโve already given me that. I want Your love. Oh, youโve given me that too, unconditionally. Maybe God is tired of me waiting for the scraps to fall off of His table because He has invited me to the feast and my stubborn heart has yet to accept His invitation.
So tonight (and hopefully every night) Iโll be hanging on His every word, trying to find His voice among the crowd and just sitting outside His door, listening to Him breathe. Thatโs where I want to be.
What Iโm Listening To:
โBreathingโ by Lifehouse
โTryingโ by Lifehouse
โTailgate Bluesโ by Luke Bryan
โSimonโ by Lifehouse