never say Never. 15 comments

I alluded to it, and now it is time for the big reveal!

It is such a clichΓ© phrase, never say never, but it is so true. Far too often in my life I’ve said I’ll never ______, and then months or years later I turn around and do just that. I once said I’d never be a Director of Religious Education because I never wanted to deal with that Restored Order of the Sacraments business. Less than a year after saying that, I took a job as Director of Faith Formation. (So technically, *technically*, I never was a Director of Religious Education. But I digress.)

I said I’d never blog. Then I did.

I said I’d never write a book. Then I did.

I thought I’d never get married. Have a kid (less than a year after getting married). Then I did.

That’s life, isn’t it?

I also swore up and down that Stay At Home Mommyhood would never, ever be for me. As it turns out, I was wrong about that one too.

After a series of difficult daycare situations and things just not working out, we had to make a decision for our family. My job was becoming increasingly frustrating. However, working at your home parish makes everything as clear as mud, but fortunately having a baby clears things up a bit. For a myriad of reasons, Anthony and I decided that leaving my job was the best option – for me and for our little Monkey.

There’s a lot I’d like to say. Turning in notice wasn’t what I thought it would be – it could have been worse, but it could have been better. In a way I wasn’t expecting, it stung. But all of that is for a different day, a day that may never appear on the blog. I’m still working through it.

But starting November 11th, I’ll be at home, raising our daughter. It won’t be total stay-at-home-ness as I’ll be doing some contract jobs from home and, yes,Β finally working on the book, editing it, adding to it, and getting a revised edition on the market – with my married name on it (after a year and a half of marriage, it is probably time to do that, right?). I’ve got some other ideas to go along with it as well. It is an exciting time for me and for our family and I am so looking forward to staying home with our daughter, getting back to the blog, the book, and my faith in a new, deep way.

So thank you, dear readers, for sticking with me, for journeying with me through all of the ups and downs and changes everywhere. Here’s to a new chapter and another lesson in never saying never!

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15 thoughts on “never say Never.

  • theresabreslin

    Okay, I thought this was what your big announcement would be about! πŸ™‚ welcome to the SAHM club (I just technically re-joined about, oh, three days ago when I wrapped up my pro bono case, haha!). Prayers for you during the transition and I truly hope it works for your family beautifully. I like to remind people that it’s NOT a permanent decision (though it feels like it), so don’t stress yourself out over it! Selfishly very excited to see more blog posts and Insta pics!!

  • Christina A.

    Awesomeness! This sounds great and I’m so happy for you and your family! I think at some level, it will make you feel more comfortable and at peace for now. Fixing the book finally is a plus too! πŸ˜€

  • stephmariecalis

    I’ll be praying for you guys as you transition into everything! The work home/thing really is such a big instance of never say never; in our case, we moved to a new city while I was 5 months pregnant for my husband to start his PhD program and I’d been offered a job in the Church that didn’t work out, so I ended up temping at his school until the end of my pregnancy. It was awesome and I got offered a full-time position, but after Aaron was born, I just sort of slid into deciding not to go back. Definitely a sacrifice in the income department, which was why, despite my having envisioned myself as a stay-at-home mom, I’d just been at peace with the fact that I’d probably have to work for the first few years of our having kids, but things have worked out so well for our family. I read someone’s post a while back about the work/kids dynamic by a stay-at-home mom, and remember her saying that although her family gives up a lot of material luxuries for her to be with their kids, they experience a lot of luxury in their family life because of her being home, which has stuck with me. Not that one is better than the other; I truly believe it’s a matter of what the Holy Spirit is calling an individual mother to do at a certain time in her vocation.

    Okay, here ends my rambling. Excited to see what’s ahead with your book!!

    • Amanda @ worthy of Agape

      Thanks! Definitely a sacrifice in the income department – and for some trips we’d been planning – but it’s going to be totally worth it. Plus, childcare is expensive! I won’t miss seeing that much of my little church worker salary going away every month!

      I am SO excited to get back into the book!!

  • Joan Geiger

    I’m excited to hear your news, Amanda! πŸ™‚ I hope your last few weeks of work and transition to staying home with your beautiful daughter goes well!! πŸ™‚ You’ll be in my prayers!!