This week’s topic: Envy and singlehood (Interpret that as you like…).
Well, gee, that is broad and open, isn’t it? So here’s how I’m approaching it: all of the things I’m envious of my non-single friends for…and a bit on how I deal with it (or perhaps how I should be dealing with it, because I’m not perfect!).
The Sweet, Doting Husband.
I honestly couldn’t rank the things I get envious of my non-single/married friends for because it changes based on the day, and most importantly, where my relationship with God is (or isn’t). That being said, the sweet, doting husband ranks pretty high up there. Perhaps it is because from where I sit I only see the good – the perfect picture they just posted on Instagram of the flowers he sent you just because, or the handwritten note he left on your bathroom mirror. Honestly, that is how I deal with my envy for the married gals in my life: I remind myself that I only see a part of their story. I don’t see the giant fight they had before that led to the picture-perfect Instagram-filtered flowers. I don’t see the couple struggling to conceive children, only the the sweet handwritten note he left, telling you how much he loves you. By reminding myself that I don’t see it all, I guard my heart, get over the envy, and prepare myself better for the future: marriage ain’t all hearts and roses and happy things, folks.
A fair amount of my friends have bought houses with their husbands (and filling them with kids, which I’ll get to). Again, all I see are the cute home improvement projects that get posted on their blogs, Facebook pages, or Instagram. What I don’t see is the roof that began to crumble over their heads as they slept, leading to the new roof and new bedspread. What I don’t see is their empty bank account that went towards the down payment on a house and how they stress over making ends meet so they can keep the recently repaired roof over their head. I also comfort myself by adding to my savings account, whether it be for a house someday, or home repairs, I remind myself to be ready and to save for my future.
My friends have some pretty darn cute kids. It has been said that I have a certain “aww” when I’m on social media looking at baby pictures (and I do, for the record). I see the cute picture of them smiling in the morning. I see the video of them taking their first steps. I don’t see the sleepless nights, I don’t smell the stinky diapers or baby spit-up. I don’t see the expenses that a baby incurs or the toll that takes on the family budget. So, while I’m “oohing” and “awwwing” over the sweet baby pictures filling up my feed, I remind myself that if the Good Lord wills it, I’ll get there someday, but for now, I enjoy sleeping through the night and knowing that if there’s a stink, it is probably coming from me and can be fixed by a nice, long, hot shower.
Moving Past Envy.
That’s it, my two-fold strategy for dealing with the envy I feel as a single person:
- Remind myself that I only see part of the story.
- Enjoy the time I have now and the benefits of being single…and save for the future.
What do you struggle with when it comes to envy and the single life?